ah christmas is over for another year thank god. bring on 2010…i have to be honest as i sit here i start thinking even though some very scary things ahve happened this year i’m going to miss 2009 as it’s been amazing.
the biggest thing i learn this year though was that i’m capable of some seriously amazing things. i no longer doubt myself in terms of ability. i pulled myself out of my very warm very secure comfort blanket (ie lincoln) and came back home to the un known, no job, back at home, few friends (they have their own lives i have been away for about 6 years don’t blame them), and no direction at all.
i was so lacking in direction i thought i’d join raf and get soeone else to point me in right direction…i did everything apart from actually attend my final day to sign up. something stopped me. my brain said no…in that split second of standing outside the RAF city office instead of going in i turned around and walked off..i kept walking and ended up in soho. i regretted in for amoment then thought no i can do this i can point myself in right direction and let luck fate and everything that has seen me through life do what it does best.
Guess what happened…it did it got me a job as a PA and thats kinda what i thought i’d be doing for a while then a communications job came up…hold up!! Yeah thats right possible career in the course i’d done at university…and thats how things have played out.
so what does 2010 hold for me, i have no idea. what ido know is i have my driving test next year, having a car delivered next year and in the first week of the new year i have an interview for the job i do at the moment. so fingers crossed. all i know is that it’s not all been luck i’ve had to work damn hard for this and i continue too, but the ebst part is i love what i do. i keep on loving it. it’s varied it’s different never have the same day. i have an awesome team minus the IT guy (who shall not be named). i hink i’ve found my place in the world, whether it’s here or somewhere else, it’s my place because i’m in it.
Next year i intend to be more out going, as soon as weather gets better, go to th gym more so i can ook good for cyprus, date so i can start sharing my world and crazy friends with someone else and finally plan and save for the future…because i have one now and i’m looking forward to it.
so this year fro christmas my brother got me uncharted 2 on ps3. i loved uncharted, so much so i fell in love with the main character. nathan drake is the perfect man!! yes this is me admitting that i actually fell in love with a computer game character. the funny part is i havent even unwrapped uncharted 2 yet. this is for good reason. on boxing day i went shopping and noticed that infamous was on sale so i brought it. i thought i’d played uncharted before so i’d just fall back in love when i was ready.
well it’s true what they say. power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely. argh it’s amazing infamous is just awesome, fully interactive, the powers are awesome, it’s fun, scary, dangerous and the story line is smart. I’ve decided to be a hero, but the probem with this is that like reality no matter which side you choose you can’t please them all. even the ‘friends’ i have on the game don’t trust me even after i’ve risked my life and saved them. it’s totally unfair, i’m the complete anti-hero but i feel i have to keep going to keep proving them wrong. I WILL SAVE THE DAY!!!